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The Evolution of My Practice

I find myself sitting down to meditate as I do most nights, just quietly sitting in our oversized beanbag chairs with Pandora playing in my ears and bringing myself back into balance. I bring myself into my astral home and begin to sort myself out. What happened today? What did I accomplish? What did I begin?

I might spend some time working on this home of mine. I might spend time working in the woods surrounding it, or the river that leads to it... but for a time; I leave myself... to work on myself.

This is where I do my ritual, without pomp or circumstance. I am an energy worker... I have a different way of doing things.   Does this mean that I do not walk the path of a witch? No, but it does beg the question, "What does that mean for my faith?"

How can I explain the deep connection I feel to those around me, the stillness that comes from within, the sense of feeling the earth turning beneath your feet, existing, both in the physical world and in the extra-physical one at the same time. The truth is, you have to go there to understand it.

Being an energy worker can be frustrating.  You are always keyed into your surroundings.  Sometimes those are people, pets, plants, guides, emotions... and just energy in its formless state. For many years it was overwhelming for me, but it is who I am.

There are a lot of things that we, as energy workers, will run into that most people won't notice.  What seems like everyday interaction to most people has a much deeper level to us.  I'll give you an example.  Walking down a crowded street, passing by countless people, their bodies brushing past one another as they move from one place to the next on their journey through their day can be both amazing and taxing if you stop to feel it.

When I walk down that street, it isn't just a commute. I drift through all the people around me. I feel drawn to clear the stagnant energy as it moves past me. I have to stop myself from reaching out to these faces in a sea of people. I end up boosting and cleaning everyone who passes by, unless I consciously prevent myself from doing it.  

I had the same issue when I worked in a call center for T-Mobile USA.  Here I was in a building surrounded by 200-400 people at a time, most of whom were frustrated, tired, annoyed, and buzzing on caffeine.  It got to the point where I had issues focusing on the call I was taking and ended up cleaning the people around me instead.  I had to learn to build walls around my cubicle so I did not feel as much.  Suffice it to say, it is a gift that has a profound impact on all aspects of my life, and it started at home.

At home here I have two wonderful little girls, a loving husband, and a dog. My children work beautifully with energy, we have spoken that way since before they were born.  Even my dog has a strong field.  My husband is the reason for this development.  He is a black hole.  By this I mean that, energetically, he draws from everything around him constantly, and instantly grounds about 90% of it out.  He is unable to hold onto energy intentionally or selectively ground it out... this even tends to effect his memory.  He also isn’t able to do anything with the remaining 10% of what he draws from around him, so it tends to get stagnant.  So at home I am obliged to maintain not only my energy levels, but also those of the rest of the household when my husband is home.

Don't get me wrong, I love this about him.  The challenge has forced me to take my energy levels to a whole other level, and has given me the strength to do amazing things.  I have tried to work with my husband and his use of energy, but the he does not want to learn.  He prefers that I do it for him.  Hubby and I have known each other for around 18 years now, and been married for 7 years.  So the habit of "cleaning him up" has long since become ingrained. This need has spread to all my surroundings and filled me with a need to keep those around me energetically healthy.  And as I mentioned before, I have issues focusing on other tasks if there is stagnant energy around me. (And before you ask, Yes I’ve been diagnosed with ADD and Bipolar)

Back to my practice and energy working.  I am, as we all are, an energetic being.  For years I fought through most of the ‘standard’ practices of paganism complete with rituals, tools, spells, and correspondences.  But I always felt like I was doing extra work.  Through focusing solely on working through energy in its true form, I have found a way to connect directly with the “divine one energy” without going through all the ‘hoops’ involved with normal pagan practice.  I am one with the Goddess always.  She is there with me every step that I make.  Between her and my guides, I could not ask for more. 

I have been on this path for many years now and I have to say I feel as though it has been an amazing journey.  I have spent time with the energy of myself and countless others, and learned to really hear them.  I hope it is an experience that everyone can share as well.  So if you feel like you are working harder then you have to, start with basic energy manipulation and move on from there.  Spend time really feeling beyond yourself.  Meditation and Astral meditation can be wonderfully helpful tools as well.  Just find a way to go where your guides are taking you and a whole new way of experiencing life will open for you.  

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